Monthly Archives: October 2009

Do You Have What It Takes? My Dr Thinks I Do, Woo Hoo!

So, while I don’t know exactly what the insurance companies think is “enough” to qualify for a CGMS, I’ve been told I’ve got it. While my endo is not my insurance company, it’s a good sign! Glad to see my lows are getting me something. There’s some saying about there’s always some good to be seen in every bad/negative situation…right?

My 2 hour endo appointment yesterday brought more than the CGMS news, it also included: Continue reading


Diabetes As A Disability?

I am a very stubborn person and hate being told I “can’t”. If you tell me I “can’t” do something, unless I understand the rationale behind it, 9 times out of 10 I’ll do it, or nearly kill myself trying. This mindset has allowed me to overcome adversity. But, I realize it can be unwise to follow this mantra at all times. As a diabetic I don’t feel I’m any less capable than the rest of the world, but I realize I do have more things to keep in mind. Continue reading


While I’ve heard of the imperfections with the CGMS’s, I still would LOVE to have one! My pump isn’t perfect either, but I wouldn’t dream of giving it up.

In December I’m eligible for a new pump. I’d also like to get a CGMS. BUT, from what I’ve been told, my insurance company will be looking for numerous readings in the 50s prior to approving coverage for a CGMS. I have a number of problems with this…

#1: The insurance companies will not approve a device that’s proven to be a helpful tool for diabetics, unless they have enough complications. What constitutes “enough”? How much danger do I need to be in to warrant a useful tool?

#2: This encourages diabetics to put themselves at risk of having, a widely-known danger, lows. Let me tell you, as soon as the pump representative “unofficially” told me what the insurance company would be looking for, I adjusted my pump settings. Twice last weej I was stuck on a train with no food or juice (it’s not allowed-though I frequently bring some anyway) with my sugars in the 40s.

#3: The insurance companies don’t even cover a great deal of the pump or CGMS supplies. Even when I had “100% Rx coverage” it only covered about 30% of my pump supply order! I realize these products are expensive – but they’re life-changing!

#4: If insurance companies are allowed to do this to diabetics – 1 – how much further will they be allowed to push us? 2 – what do they do to people with other medical issues?

#5: By not approving a proven aid in the management of an incredibly complicated disease, the insurance companies are PUNISHING those who have decent control of their sugars! If they were approving all diabetics with imperfect sugars, they’d be approving every single diabetic.

#6: The CGMS alerts for high sugars too! Why in the world aren’t people with high A1c levels & multiple high readings allowed access?!?! It can help them too!

#7: Most insurance companies had even more restrictive regulations on CGMS approval just a year ago and only eased up when thousands of diabetics started and signed petitions. Why is it they will only change their policies when they’re threatened with the idea of their injustice being publicized? It’s infuriating!

I did absolutely nothing to get diabetes – I do not deserve to be punished for having it, nor do you!

Here’s to hoping Christmas will not only bring a shiny new pump – but a CGMS too!

Everyone’s Got Their Own Take

It’s hard, it can be scary, it’s exhausting, it’s anything but normal, it requires a lot of work, responsibility and dedication. Not only all that, but diabetes also requires you to be a constant student…learning all the time.

I would not wish diabetes on ANYONE. But, it most certainly brought about positive changes in my life. It’s connected me with so many people I never would have had the opportunity to meetotherwise.

To me, the hardest part about living with diabetes…you never get a vacation, EVER.

The disease is not me, I will not be considered “diseased,” it’s not my life…it’s part of my life, I’m just like everyone else (unique and dealing with unique struggles) and while I may not have the health you have, I’m determined to make up what I’m lacking in health with spirit. Sometimes I lose focus with this idea, but always somehow find my way back.

As with any challenge in life, it’s important to have a “take.” When a football team takes the field to play, they have a plan. People with “chronic illnesses” need a plan too. Are you going to let the disease consume you, take over your life and drain the you who once was? Or are you going to stand up to the disease and fight it, make life changes for yourself and adapt to a new lifestyle and new perspective. Let me tell you, it can be hard not to crawl up into a ball and hide under the covers some days…and that’s okay when it happens, just don’t get stuck. If you watch Grey’s Anatomy at all Meredith and Christina occasionally get the “dark and twisties”…if it’s okay for them, it’s okay for me. …That’s what I like to tell my self at least.

For a long time I had a blog, but it wasn’t focused on diabetes alone. I still intend on keeping the other blog going, once some things clear up, but I’d like to have a focused one too. While I don’t let diabetes dictate my life (most days), I’d be lying if I tried to say diabetes was not a HUGE part of my life. As a Type 1 pumper I’ve got a device attached 24/7, if the device weren’t enough of a reminder, I count the carbs in every food that passes my face, see the scars on my fingers, look in my purse and see my glucometer, insulin & emergency pump supplies. Diabetes is everpresent. Like the younger, annoying step-sibling you never asked for, but still came. I am grateful for some of the changes that I’ve made since being diagnosed, in a lot of ways diabetes has been a blessing…but a lot of things would be easier without it.

Anyway, this is me shooting for 100…right now I’m 193, definitely not on target, but I did eat not too long ago.